#depression
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Wisdom

2 min read

Published: 16 Jun 2020

Vihaan
Vihaan
Hey I know I said I wouldn't do this again, But can you please call me?
Anahita
Anahita
I can't right now, you know how it is here. Right?
Living in an orthodox family, she can't afford to have a conversation with Vihaan
Vihaan
Vihaan
I really need to talk to you. I read your blog. Are you okay?
Anahita
Anahita
I am okay. Now what do you have to say? Say it here. Please. I can not call you.
Vihaan
Vihaan
Leave it.
Anahita
Anahita
When will you stop doing this? You can't text me and then say "leave it".
Vihaan
Vihaan
Messages here get lost in translation. Please.
Anahita
Anahita
Say it out here.
Anahita
Anahita
Please.
Anahita
Anahita
I'll understand
Vihaan
Vihaan
Okay. Can you answer some things for me first?
Anahita
Anahita
Yep?
Vihaan
Vihaan
Do you wish it?
Vihaan
Vihaan
Wish that you were dead?
Anahita
Anahita
Sometimes.
Anahita
Anahita
Often. But I dismiss it.
Anahita
Anahita
I'm working on it
Vihaan
Vihaan
Any thoughts on how you might do it?
Anahita
Anahita
Jump off somewhere maybe.
Anahita
Anahita
It'll be glorious though
Anahita
Anahita
I'll dress up as a Narnian queen
Vihaan
Vihaan
Ever intended to go through with it?
Anahita
Anahita
What do you mean?
Vihaan
Vihaan
Do you feel it happening?
Anahita
Anahita
Yeah. Sometimes.
Anahita
Anahita
But I don't have the courage.
Anahita
Anahita
Can't do it really.
Anahita
Anahita
I have an annoying amount of hope in me.
Vihaan
Vihaan
I'm sorry you feel like this. I know you feel like there is no way out of this.
Anahita
Anahita
I don't know if there is.
Anahita
Anahita
I'm comfortable being here. In my dark.
Anahita
Anahita
More afraid of being happy.
Anahita
Anahita
You know, how you feel bout going to a new place? Will it be good enough?
Vihaan
Vihaan
You know there are people who care bout you. Right?
Anahita
Anahita
Yeah, I know. I still count on you.
Vihaan
Vihaan
Continue to do so.
Anahita
Anahita
And I'm still equipped enough to solve your problems
Vihaan
Vihaan
Haha. You sure are!
Anahita
Anahita
Was that sarcasm ?!
Vihaan
Vihaan
No Ana. It wasn't.
Anahita
Anahita
Cool then. Bye?
Vihaan
Vihaan
You should know "I'll never not need you"
Anahita
Anahita
"Strange how we decorate pain"
Vihaan
Vihaan
Take care Ana
Anahita
Anahita
I'll. I sure will. You too, take care.
Vihaan
Vihaan
Don't do it. Ever.
Anahita
Anahita
"We've got to live, No matter How many skies have fallen"
Anahita
Anahita
:)
Vihaan
Vihaan
:)






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